i struggle with the scale in so many ways - weight of course being the most nagging. i don't own a scale, but instead weigh in when i happen to chance upon one. The last chance i had was yesterday on an unfortunate trip to the pediatrician to stitch up a little head wound. i snuck onto the kids scale, hoping it wasn't calibrated to calculate only kids, not fat moms (that thought really did cross my mind, how ridiculous). i snuck on and off quickly, unbeknownst to any of the nurses around me. they also didn't know that they were (un)witnesses to me crossing off a LIFE LIST item, and one of the ones I am most excited to complete.
then: LOSE TEN POUNDS
i did it. Ten down.
now: LOSE TEN MORE POUNDS
the other scale related struggle i have is finding balance in my life - work/family/friends/self. i do not believe that i will ever have the time to be the emily i want to be for all the people/things in my life. which is pretty disappointing. i found some hope in this great interview with gabrielle hamilton, who basically says, fuck the balance, or rather, she puts it a bit more eloquently: 'balance is elusive.' Here's the clip: